2002-03-10 - 10:09 p.m.
i have been "good" for much of my life. self destructive at times, but "good" to everyone else. I rarely hurt people, even people i don't like. i don't enjoy it. i don't like seeing people be weak, fall apart, cry, get angry or defensive. but i know how to hurt them, i know where to hit. i hate knowing. i keep my mouth shut. today i was told that i should stop letting people hurt me and start fighting back. but where's the fun in that? it's no fun to always win.